E.V. Johnson
Holding Chains
I'm not gonna lie, it's been a rough month. I have felt further from God than I have in a long while. I know that he is by my side, I...
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Journey
E.V. Johnson
Nov 10, 20202 min read
Lord, I don't feel like singing
I have known since I was young that God has called me to a life of worship. He speaks to me through song, through music. I pray through...
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E.V. Johnson
Nov 8, 20202 min read
Feeling like Job
God asked me to start reading Job. Great, I get to read one of the most depressing books in the Bible! A couple days into reading I found...
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E.V. Johnson
Oct 4, 20202 min read
Uncertain Journey
We may think that our future is uncertain, but God already knows what it holds. Through the last week I have been preparing for my future...
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E.V. Johnson
Sep 25, 20203 min read
Different, Okay.
It's been a while. I guess I didn't really know what to say until now, but here it goes. Since my last post in May a lot has been going...
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E.V. Johnson
May 15, 20202 min read
This Battle is Won.
Through this last week and a half I have found healing, yes; but with healing comes recovery, And recovery isn't always easy. I have been...
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E.V. Johnson
May 8, 20202 min read
Plan B
The last three weeks have been everything but good for me. Another depressive episode, full of anxiety and exhaustion. Three weeks of...
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E.V. Johnson
Apr 21, 20202 min read
Freedoms confusion
I've always wanted to be and feel free. above all else I want to love and be loved. I hold a passion in my heart for reaching out to...
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E.V. Johnson
Apr 14, 20202 min read
Grace
Though anxiety lives within me so does my God. Learning to have grace for myself is something I have always struggled with. Being...
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E.V. Johnson
Apr 6, 20202 min read
Gardener
It's spring, and as we look outside we see rain, rain, and more rain. Being stuck in our houses it seems easy to stare out the window and...
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E.V. Johnson
Mar 31, 20202 min read
Fire
Sometimes it can feel like there are flames surrounding us. We try our best to put it out, desperately using our tears to extinguish the...
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E.V. Johnson
Mar 24, 20202 min read
Isolated
I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty upset about the lock down on Washington state. I realize that the government is just trying to keep people...
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E.V. Johnson
Mar 20, 20202 min read
Warriors of Faith
In the midst of all the chaos I didn't really understand the big deal. I was just tired of how rude the world had become. In the panic of...
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E.V. Johnson
Mar 6, 20202 min read
Storm
Life can feel like a storm; all the negatives, all the disappointment, all the worries and fears constantly being blown in our faces. We...
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E.V. Johnson
Feb 27, 20202 min read
Home
The view from my house is amazing! The snowy mountains, the frosted evergreens, the mist that floats above the river. I missed this view,...
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E.V. Johnson
Feb 11, 20202 min read
What's Next?
I've done it, I got my GED, I got my drivers license; but what's next? I had a plan to go to the leadership college through my home...
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E.V. Johnson
Feb 4, 20202 min read
Smile
My community seems to be flooded with depression and suicide; yet the only people who are willing to talk about it are the people who...
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E.V. Johnson
Jan 29, 20202 min read
Just Eat
The last two weeks haven't been easy for me. I've been struggling with depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, and a whole lot of stress....
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E.V. Johnson
Jan 22, 20202 min read
Phoenix
We all have a little phoenix in us. I know that isn't always easy to believe especially with the struggles that life throws at us. This...
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E.V. Johnson
Jan 15, 20202 min read
Life
I'm about to say something that a lot of you might not like. It's a hard truth that most aren't willing to accept. Suicide is murder. One...
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E.V. Johnson
Jan 10, 20202 min read
100
Just as a friendship should be, just as a marriage should be, our relationship with God requires time and effort. But here is where we...
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E.V. Johnson
Jan 7, 20202 min read
Roots
A lot has happened in the last few days. I finally found some answers. "For she had built her faith upon a rock which was strong but did...
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E.V. Johnson
Dec 29, 20192 min read
Mistakes
I felt like someone needed to hear this, I know I did; so here we go. Just because it didn't work out, just because it was wrong doesn't...
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E.V. Johnson
Dec 26, 20192 min read
Am I dreaming?
I open my eyes but I'm still dreaming. Is it just a dream or will this someday become my reality? Ever since I was old enough to talk, I...
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E.V. Johnson
Oct 31, 20193 min read
Broken
Monday night my boyfriend and I broke up. Wednesday would have been one year of us being together. Now, before you go jumping to...
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E.V. Johnson
Oct 7, 20192 min read
Spooky Season!
It's officially October! And we all know what that means... Halloween. I am beyond excited for pumpkin patches and caramel apples. It's...
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E.V. Johnson
Sep 13, 20192 min read
Falling
Apple cider, Halloween, sweater weather, I'm ready for it all. Fall here I come! I'm stepping out, doing new things with my life. This...
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E.V. Johnson
Aug 16, 20192 min read
Adult?
August first I turned 18. I have to start adulting now. This means making my own phone calls and signing my own papers. but it also means...
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E.V. Johnson
Jul 4, 20192 min read
Good
Good. I am good at a lot of things; but I'm not great at anything. I can't seem to do anything quite right. I've done theater for 10...
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E.V. Johnson
Jun 28, 20192 min read
Picked Last
I'm try. I try to be a good person, a good friend. I try to reach out and I try to participate. But, I'm beginning to realize that I am...
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E.V. Johnson
Jun 2, 20192 min read
Congrats
It's that time of year again, graduation. This year was supposed to be my senior year. They treated me like one; senior nights for cheer...
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E.V. Johnson
May 19, 20191 min read
Roller coaster
Life is like a roller coaster it has its ups and downs. But for some of us life is an extreme coaster. It goes upside down and backwards,...
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E.V. Johnson
Mar 29, 20193 min read
Musically Inclined
The first half of my February was a bit boring, not a lot happened. I had school and that was about it. I made time for my family, my...
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E.V. Johnson
Jan 27, 20193 min read
One day at a time
The new year is here. I was hoping to start out this year different from the last. Unfortunately we're still in January and I just got...
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E.V. Johnson
Dec 18, 20183 min read
Winter craze
It's December and we all know what that means, the holidays. We've all been running around in the holiday craze trying to cook and bake...
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E.V. Johnson
Nov 10, 20182 min read
Where to begin
First off I'd like to apologize for not posting in forever and a half. However, I have been crazy busy with life. In September I became a...
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E.V. Johnson
Aug 13, 20182 min read
Freedom in Surrender
Camp. Last year at summer camp God freed me from my eating disorder. I went into this year with great expectations. The theme this year...
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E.V. Johnson
Jun 15, 20182 min read
Summer begins
It's finally hitting me, like a brick upside the head. Lexi is leaving soon. Soon, she is leaving on her senior trip and creeping up on...
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E.V. Johnson
Jun 14, 20183 min read
Here we go Again
Yep, that's right, again. 5th times a charm. Another REALLY rough day full of suicidal thoughts, ending with an explosion of emotion,...
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E.V. Johnson
May 4, 20183 min read
Going Crazy
I feel like I'm going crazy. So much has happened in the last month and I don't even know where to begin. well, I guess I'll start with...
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E.V. Johnson
Mar 2, 20182 min read
Return
I laid there shaking, Tuesday. My day had been okay, my mood seemed fine. and then it hit. Depression. I was shaking and crying and I...
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