It's December and we all know what that means, the holidays. We've all been running around in the holiday craze trying to cook and bake and find presents for our loved ones. I'm not against any of this. Although it gets a bit crazy I quite enjoy the baking, caroling, music concerts, and my favorite, gift giving. Giving is how I show I care, I put a lot of thought into the gifts I give and probably get more excited about them than the people who receive them. Between the gifts, choir, and band, I get wrapped up in the holidays very quickly. We have family holiday traditions such as the free carriage ride in Downtown Spokane where we sing Christmas carols as we ride around the town in a horse drawn carriage. We go to the Christmas tree elegance at the Davenport Hotel. And we always finish off our day with dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory. This year my boyfriend was able to join my family for our day Downtown. In the midst of all the holiday hoopla, it's winter sports season. I decided not to do cheer for basketball season. I know that I wouldn't have been able to keep up with the schedule. I also know that I struggle mentally and physically and with the team doing competitions I would rather leave that spot for somebody else to join the team. All that being said, I am in pep band. I have only played a few times but I am enjoying learning the drum set. School has been a bit all over the place. Radio is going well. Choir is fun and so is band. I am going to try to switch my schedule after Christmas break though. I love drama however, if I switch it out for an online geometry course, giving me two math classes, I would then be able to finish my math early making me able to take my GED sooner. I've been thinking about my future more and more recently. I don't think a four-year college is right for me. I don't think I could handle the stress of that many classes. I also would hate to put that pressure on someone else. Roommates are a gamble, you never know who you're going to end up with.I don't know if the person I would end up rooming with would be able to handle my mood swings. That being said, even if you do struggle with mental illness but you have a dream perusing college, chase that dream. Just because it isn't right for me doesn't mean you can't have a wonderful college experience. I'm thinking I'm going to move out when I turn 18 in August. I will find a job and take a couple music classes at a local community college. I may take an ASL course and become certified in ASL just for the fun of it. Through all of this I am hoping to stay close to my support system. Being able to be close to my doctors, counselors, family, and boyfriend will be beneficial for my transition into adulthood. I am proud to say that I can finally see a future for myself, I finally have a hope for a future career, family, and home. I am excited for what is in store for me.
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