Good. I am good at a lot of things; but I'm not great at anything. I can't seem to do anything quite right. I've done theater for 10 years. In those 10 years, not once have I gotten a lead role. I mean sure, I've gotten plenty of great supporting characters and they were fun roles; I was good at them... but not good enough for the lead. I have been playing guitar for almost 5 years, I had a teacher in the beginning but then became self taught due to finances. I really only know about 12 chords, I don't play tabs (although I can read them), and I still can't play bar chords. I know one song on the guitar other than what I've written; which takes me to the next thing, song writing. I'm good at starting songs but nowadays I can't seem to finish one. I can come up with chord progressions but after the first verse the lyrics seem lost on me. I know how to do a lot of stuff but I can't seem to get great at any of it, I'm just okay, I'm just good. I can sew and crochet, but not enough to make anything useful. You see I am not ungrateful for the skills and talents that I do have; I would just like to feel like I'm great at something, anything. I feel lost without my passions, my passions seem to be dwindling all to quickly. After my ankle surgeries I can't dance the way I used to. I can't be a cheerleader anymore. I've picked up so many bad habits from people around me that I'm not as good of a singer. All these things, my passions, my hopes, my dreams, they seem to be crushing under the weight of the world. I want it all back. I want to sing and dance and cheer and act and write. I want to be a musician. I want to be great.
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