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The view from my house is amazing! The snowy mountains, the frosted evergreens, the mist that floats above the river. I missed this view, I missed these people. But I already miss Arizona. Being there is making me consider going to college at GCU. I'm in love with the sunshine, the city, the sunsets. However, I still have friends, family, and opportunity here. I'm being torn in two having to choose between the family and friends at home that I love so dearly or moving to the sunshine to start all over. The more I think about it the more I realize that I need to go and see the world. I need to build a life on my own as my own person, away from the small town that I find myself trapped in. Don't get me wrong, I love this little town; but I want to expand my world and I don't see that happening here. The people here are the reason I call this home. Who knows, maybe someday I will call Arizona home. However, I'm terrified of college because to be honest I never thought I would live long enough to be there. I never thought I would get my GED or my driver's license much less even think about going to college. When the option arose I planned on going to a trade school or community college, not because that's what I wanted, but because I didn't think I was capable of going to a four year university. So here I am now... I'm scared; but I'm doing this. I am forcing myself to see a future for myself. I am making a future for myself despite everything that I once thought, despite everything that I continue to think. Because if we allow ourselves to sink back into the darkening words and capturing thoughts then we will never reach the top... or even the middle. If we wallow in our own pit of sorrow, depression, and imperfection we will never see our potential. We need to strive for greatness in order to achieve it. I too am learning, keep your head up even when you don't feel like it because some day you could do great things if you're just willing to make the effort to get there.